
Another fabulous read by Barbara Elsborg, she is firmly in my favourite author category.
In Everything That Kills Me, I was taken on an emotional journey that covered around a decade of Jack and Zeph’s lives and their hard-won relationship.
My heart broke for both of these young men throughout this story, but I never gave up hoping they would get their happy ever after despite the barriers that kept them apart.
I’m glad I got the backstory of each of the MCs, as upsetting as some of it was, it was essential to understanding the journey their lives took.
Starting at age 16, seeing the way Zeph was treated by his family and by the kids at school made my heart ache for him, and I felt anger and dislike for his family; no family should treat their children or siblings the way they did. Meeting Jack at school and their short but deep connection is the catalyst for change he needs, even though it brings heartbreak on more than one occasion over the subsequent years.
My heart also went out to Jack, who at 6 was saved from a house fire and taken in by Thomas and trained to be an assassin, something he didn’t fully understand when he was given the choice at such a young age and something he eventually takes for granted as his future, until he meets Zeph and his view of the world, his life and his future are changed.
An emotional read full of ups and downs and doubts, and hopes, it doesn’t shy away from some of the darker aspects of life.

About the book
Two boys. One deadly secret. A love worth risking everything for.
Rescued from a raging inferno as a young child, Jack is homeschooled in more than English and maths. His saviour is training him to be an assassin. But when Jack is compelled to attend an ordinary school, in an ordinary English town, his carefully controlled life unravels.
Zeph, brilliant, passionate and determined, has his eyes set on Cambridge and a future in intelligence. He has no time for distractions, at least, not until Jack turns up at his school. He’s everything Zeph has secretly longed for but he has no idea his life will never be the same again.
As boys turn into men, the cost of their connection becomes clear. Jack’s secrets are dangerous, and each time he sees Zeph, the more the two of them are at risk. Jack knows he should walk away and not look back. Is a happy-ever-after possible when his life is full of secrets and lies, disappearances and deception?
But some things are meant to be.
Warning
Violence – this is about an assassin after all!
None of the following are major themes but occur in the cruelty to a child, bullying, homophobic and transphobic remarks, cancer, brief mention of eating disorder, brief mention of suicide, gambling, death of parents.
































